Am I strong and brave enough ?
To walk through the right door or across the bridge ?
I firmly believe I have been gifted this life for a purpose - not just to survive but to thrive and live an abundant life in all of the ways.
My life has not been a straight line - far from it - and it continues to move upwards in what is probably best described as a wiggly line and certainly not a straight line up.
Life’s disasters and failures are I believe steps along the way - one has to grieve when life throws us a curve ball and then learn the new lessons. This is what makes us stronger, more resilient and able to move closer towards the life that is intended for us.
The hurts hurt - big time - and there is no quick fix, one has to do the work and focus on the process daily, as one of my good friends said to me a lot last year and still says the same today.
And he’s correct of course - focus on the process, show up daily and walk the path - the aim is not to reach the mountain top - but journey the path upwards - and in my case, take a wrong turn or two and come back down a bit, learn more lessons and then strive upwards again.
As we move towards the end of June and half way through 2025, I have a strong feeling that this year is very much a transformational and learning year for me - but I also feel as though I am destined for another life - a new country, new people and to live in a more expansive manner. This year has been to date about learning what happened last year, not taking old bad habits forward, setting new intentions and walking a different path.
So far it has been a transformational 6 months - lots of new things have come up, I’m learning so much about me and what makes me tick and makes me happy.
Slowly, I can start to see a vision of my new life ahead of me - one where I show up as the most true version of me - where my 6 year old self is released fully and the scars that I’ve accumulated along the way are not discarded but understood and then patterns in my behaviour can be changed.
God/the universe never reveals the whole story in one go but I’m starting to feel a new life emerging where my family & friend relationships are good & strong, my health (body & mind in all aspects) is functioning as well as it did when I was much younger, and my work & finances are fulfilling and providing a life full of excitement, joy, happiness, laughter, kindness, travel and love.
Having lived in the south of France for the past 8 years, southern Europe feels like a place I could easily live very happily again - maybe Tuscany. But not so remote that one feels cut off from society and the world - in a place where it’s easy to get a good coffee or matcha, a good hair cut, good doctors & dentists etc, and of course good quality fresh and local food.
The sun plays an important part in my life - damp grey skies do not do it for me - especially days on end.
So maybe Tuscany is the location ? I don’t know yet and probably will not know for some months to come and maybe it won’t be next year - maybe 2027 ?
Who knows ? God/the universe knows and I need to be a good listener and be mindful of what doors are being opened for me.
PS I just read a post from
- “you need to cross the bridge yourself” - so so good. He says “holding on to wounds allows us to attempt to hold on to the pace of life. Letting go and becoming everything that you can be, can feel like a free fall …. we can feel ourselves grasping for something to slow down the unfolding of life. But here’s the thing - if you’re not changing, you are dying.”“But the only way you’ll ever know your power is to live it. So go do the thing you know you need to do in order to become the person you’ve always known existed - who only exists from you walking the path life is presenting.”
Wow ! So good Mark - thank you. Am I brave enough to let go and walk my bridge ? Let’s find out - I say I am but it’s actions and not words that count.