Exactly one year ago today, my marriage imploded !
I didn’t see it coming and I was devastated by the destruction - it took me some time to realise the enormity of what was happening and that I either had to accept it and get on with a new life or stay in a spiral of depression and anxiety.
It wasn’t easy and with the help of friends & family, I managed to get by each day and slowly a light appeared at the end of the proverbial tunnel and I was able to crawl, then walk and then run towards it.
The experience is not anything I will go through ever again - and do not wish it upon anyone - BUT, as my good friend said yesterday, look at this date as your ‘renaissance’ ! The day true ‘FREEDOM’ was gifted back to you and your life was able to be re-started in a new and positive manner.
He was with me from day 4 when I shared with him what had just happened ! He has been such a great support and continues to be today.
He said to me yesterday - “it was such a pleasure to see how far you’ve come, the way you’ve handled the situation, stayed calm - which is so rare and so important. Be proud of yourself and keep looking great & smiling.”
I’m not looking for affirmation from anyone - a few years ago I did but I do not look for it & need it as I did - however, its such a lift to hear your friend, who witnessed the devastation and the daily anxiousness for months, say these things to me.
I am so proud and grateful for how I am today, this moment in time. I’m not perfect of course, but I’m committed to doing all of the work so that I can be the best version of me. And of course, I have dreams & aspirations for my life going forward but I’m open to my God to lead me down His path - He looked after me last year for sure, and has done so this year and I believe He’s opening so many doors for me, and when the timing is right, they will be there for me to walk through - maybe run or sprint through.
I am so grateful for all of the support I received this past 12 months and continue to receive from so many friends & family members.
As I’ve said here before, “we’re are all broken, that’s where the light gets in” ! The experience has taught me so much about myself and how I want to live the rest of my life.
I will not make the same mistakes again and I am excited by today, tomorrow and next month etc etc etc. Life is good if you decide to step out and make it good. It’s a daily choice - not always easy I admit, and I have some low moments for sure - but with the tools, and people who love me, my days are filled with so much joy, laughter and love - and also excitement.
One thing I am learning about myself, which I’ve probably always known, is that I’m not one to settle into a rhythm - sure, some routine is necessary but what I mean is that I’m not looking to build my ‘castle’ and settle in one place. A base yes, but the ability to travel and explore parts of the world - revisit some with a new perspective but also experience new places & cultures.
I’m blessed in so many ways - one being the work that I do - I’ve always been a sports fan, both playing and watching. And now I’m able to work with sports rights holders from around the globe and use my business & marketing experience to help organisations/brands to form long term, effective partnerships.
This is far from a 9 to 5 job, it’s a passion and I love the fact that I can be at lunch with friends on a Thursday and still be able to respond to a message/email from someone about one of the projects I’m working on. And given the fact I work internationally, switching off at 5 is not an option - and my weekends are often interspersed with work emails etc.
FREEDOM was and is my word for 2025.
Freedom related to three key areas of my life.
Family & Friends.
Health - emotional and physical.
Work & Finances.
I am so happy to be able to say, that all three areas have moved forward in such positive ways.
Next week’s post I’ll share more about Family & Friends.
Thank you for reading. And if one person takes anything positive away from this post, then that’s a win win.
I can’t wait to see how your life unfolds 💕